latestpost.

it's been awhile yeahh, since the last update?
i had a bad dream & ended up with a scratch on my finger & knuckles in reality.
cause ; waking up with giving a one hard punch to my drawer, unconsciously.


school's ; been great with classmates,friends & some teachers for the past one week. had fun & laughed our asses off alot in classes. EL lessons are a complete bummer & i ain't gonna whine about it. having V.A. lessons every evening from now. -.- oh the joy ! well ohh well.. all for the good of the students i guess..

home ; lets not talk about it.

myself ; my blood tends to boil faster lately. &
i've been pretty distracted by stress, seriously i realised that.
trying not to whine too much or complain too much.. sometimes i'm upset with myself.. & i'm trying hard not to let bad things affect me cause if not, definitely this will happen ;
STRESS --> { Gets Distracted--> Becomes an Annoyance--> Screws Things Up Eventhough All The Stuffs Is Not Something That's Intended = i feel sucky.. it'll affect people around me.. & it affects you.. }
& i never ever want that to happen.
i'm deprived of sleep. feeling sleepy most of the time. sometimes i almost doze off halfway during lesson. weekends is the only days i make up for the lack of sleep.. how bad is that..
but ironically, i'm learning better. committed to my d&t coursework already.well.. paying more attention in class than before. like finally, all these stuffs got thru my head. after so longg. (:

r'ship : imissyousovehmuchbaby. =<
& surprisingly, this week passed by quicker than i thought it'd be..
& i'm sorry i've been pretty annoying at times.
i just want you to know i didn't mean to be like that lately baby,
i don't. i just miss you.alot.
<3


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this picture describes how i'm feeling right now.

ehem.

first of all;
i haven't even finish my assignments.
aint gonna do all except d&t, maths, el.

i neeeeed ;
to get a new guitar cable & an extra set of strings. a tri-stand guitar stand.
i've got three guitars. two acoustics & one electric that is why.
it's really messy to have it in the corner of the room. -.-
ok fuck. i don't know why i'm suddenly in the mood to keep things neat around here.
i gotta start saving money like from now !!!

& i realised i've been so pretty much random lately.
i say #$@!@&$*@(#)@$& ALOT too!

People ;
some changes. awww.. some tries to affect me with what they do.
some friends came back.. some are in difficult times.. some don't give a shit at all..
some just wanna ENJOY & bullshit their way out through life.
but yeahhs, i don't give a shitt if you wanna bring me down. [:
cause all the bullshits, all these while, it made me strong mothafucker. (Y)
PEACE !

& evertthingg else has been..
nahs, it's for me to know & for you guys to find out for yourself.
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'This Confidence Is Just The Stain You Can't Wipe Off '
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that'll speak for itself..

i know sorry's not good enoughh.. but..

i feel bad about stuffs last nightt.
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i'm sorry.. babyy..
it sucks to feel worse about yourself..
i effed up last nightt.. i didn't know how it happened..
maybe i just don't want you speak like one of us will be leaving soon..
:(

now, i'm just dying to call you up..
i aint sure your prepaid's still enoughh.
i just wanna hear you.. tell you all the stuffs that's on my mind...
listen to you speaking... i just miss you...
real bad..

quirky.

i feel like updating today,eventhough i have nothing much to write.


well.. i'm working on a new songg. still in the developement process..
yeahs, i can find a time to write a song than an essay which i'm supposed to do..
i also don't know why.. well.. i got up today,, i felt good.. & yeahs..
:D today is not so bad of a day. i feel orange today. haha. ok. fuck, that's enough. (:


by the time you all read this, i think you realised that it's mostly random stuffs.
so yeahhs ! happy holidays ! =D

hey people. it's me ! & here's another update!


well.. things been pretty shaky at home lately..
over stuffs that happened last sunday.. actually alot happened last sunday ;
unhappiness. anger. feeling depressed. sucky atmosphere.


it's better now.. in a way.. still quite bad.
my pockets are dry; no ka-ching no more ! =<
it's holidays somemore.. it's like wth..
i'm glad that things are going in the right path between me & you. [:
& imy.

amongst those stuffs happening there,,
just stand up tall for what you believe in.
you're good. way more than just good. (:
i'll be here to stay. be it, no one else would.
& smilebabysmile..[:

P.s.

iloveyou.

well ohh well..

NOTICE :
it'll be quick updates from now onwards. not updating regularly.
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Family; like usual. nothing much changed.

Homies ; they've been a hell of a ride. hectic. fun. pleasant. crazy. we watch each other's back often.
& PSW, birthday's tomorrow. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BITCH ! haha. :D

R'ship; 4 more days. i won't get to see you pretty long. imythough, like right now. like duh. i know [:
happy 6th month in advance. just in case i don't update for long. we've been thru some hell & back again.
you know me well. & i know you too. [: call me up if anything crops up, i'll be here.
ilysvmbaby. <3


Sch ; it's getting boring. but i still gotta continue learning.. low profiling in school since last week..
idk,, sometimes i aint in the mood to talk.. ASTLEY & GANG, always changes that. [:
i had a great time with them. i don't even know how i sorta got closer to them.
worthwhile, honestly, i must say it. [: SOCCER is the best part !

Me ; i've been thinking alot on my future lately. there's many things i'd want to have & achieve.
right now, i'm just focusing on getting outta sch & into poly. pass O's well. & then it's settled.
after that i'll work on the others (:

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ending on a short note ;

You're all I have
In this world that judges long before it sees.
In this place that hates and only wants to
push me down and walk forsaken.


& if there's an afterlife.
i'll be there again, to light this match.

adious people. takegoodcare of yourself. =9

i'm gonna cherish every moment,
cause things like you. only happens once, once in a lifetime.

those questions that we ask,
so obvious, the answer.
we live. we learn. we try. we fail. we rise.
only then we die.



well i'm still wide awake. still can't sleep.
still thinking about what lies ahead.
the good stuff clouds my mind.
still finishing my work. [:


& i miss you so, so very much .
baby.

yeahh.

If I could have just one wish,
I'd wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine..