Remembering Sunday

[Alex Gaskarth : ]
He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days

Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place seems familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

Even though she doesn't believe in love,
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut

Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm going to ask her to marry me

The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be

[Juliet Simms:]
I'm not coming back (forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak (I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just (You're driving me crazy, I'm)
Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world,
From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head

[Alex Gaskarth:]
Well I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now...
I guess I'll go home now..
I guess I'll go home...

i can't be bothered too much on all those pricks who still act like a douche bag.
well, okay, besides that : I NEED A PUNCHING BAG !

whats up lately?
i've been mugging past two days, i've got the whole damn week to do so..
i'm typing this post with a very very heavy eyelid. forgive me if things turns out blurry or if i tend to talk without fullstops & things goes pretty much HAYWIRED. :/

so yeah today, i borrowed this Protege guitar from a friend, it looks,sounds & feels pretty awesome. maybe a change of strings would make it better. ( i'm back to playing, now i could try to let my ideas flow once more.)


i realised ;
sometimes : the things that i choose to do or stuffs like that, it'll somehow come back to you.
on occasions : i tend to be deluding myself by being nice to mofos who deserve a punch right in their faces..
all the time : i've been missing you. sleeping gets hard to do too with these limited time..



i'm sorry for those things i once had said.
& i'm sorry when i once pushed your hands away.. :/

i <3 you .so much .

something i came across.

‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you, just as you do not expect it from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. ‘I love you’ means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping that you feel the same way for me.

i love you.
& i sorely miss you.
:/

Sometimes i just hope that i could wash away all the pain of today and yesterday.

i ruin everything that's close to me.

well, i feel so empty..
i've been telling myself that i'll be fine, but that's a lie..
been having recent fights/disagreements/arguements with my folks over something ( i still don't get it) .
missing everything that i've lost along the way.
i was growing up, make my mistakes & paid my dues.. we all do..

& baby, i do miss the way your eyes gleamed vibrantly when i used to talk to you so closely in the past, for now it seemed like they're gone. :\ ( have i lost you..)

sometimes it's quite depressing to think of everything.. but when i wake up the next morning, i'll be fine & happy again.. cycle goes on..
i think i need coffee and ciggarettes. more ciggarettes. more coffee..
( don't let me start all over again please... :[ )

my journey so far has been fun, esp from september last year..
now a year passed by, i realised it was pretty fast. it's over (us) when our minds & egos took over us.
we screwed up like heck. say mean stuffs. but regardless, it didn't manage to stop me to love you up till now.
it was never the same without you. 10th's on sunday. church on sunday for you.
apparently, i guess i'm gonna spent this 1year 1month annimonthsary alone again.

i don't think i've been well with my health though, never been to the doctor since my last critical visit. & my life is getting to that point where i don't think i might be myself anymore (not related to my health). i love you all, esp those people who knew me & what i wanted to do in my life really well, like my ; haji lane lepak partner & jamming people. & last but not least, the person who knew me for the most part, both inside & out, which is you hunneh.

thanks for the memories people.
if there's still time, we'll party hard when the moment we've waited for, ends.