why am i doing what i'm doing...

i've been reading all my blogpost from january till now..

it's quite depressing, certain post, out of the whole..

yeaps,

about 300plus days of you in all.

all the hurting, the shoutings, the nice moments.

yeahh.. 300days of that...

okay, i don't know why the hell i'm counting all these right now..

all i know is that i'm so not gonna be able to get some sleep..

because my neck is still hurting like a motherfucker.

& i slept the whole way through the evening when i reached home at lets say almost four.

In my heart, is where i keep you.

it isn't so bad, until i looked at my hands & feel sad..

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i'm still not able to fall asleep,

it's 2.30 already.. in 3 and a half hours time, i'll have to get ready for school..

i've been lying in bed, thinking, trying to get some sleep & alot more thoughts..

until i can't figure out what exactly has been on my mind for the past 4 hours or so..

typical? nahs, i don't think so.. well, alot happened during the holidays.. even the first day school reopens too..

getting fucked & fucked by the days... O's are one hell of a bitch man..

well.. at least now some things are better & clearer than it was before..

it came with a price too, of course.

no shit, i'm kinda feeling blue.. just a tinge of sadness..

but i'm contented somehow.(:

two of the best people in life, are gonna have their birthdays on the same day..

i don't wanna be screwing up anything for them.. i have the tendency to screw things up sometimes..

lets not even go there... else, i'll fuckin take too long for a blog update..

& i realised i miss the old me.. but the new me isn't that bad..

except for certain points though..

so yeahhs,

those who aren't happy with me or something,

i dont give a fuck about it.

don't make your problem mine.. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE !

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Great Morning ! =D

i didnt manage to sleep last night.

showered at 5am. & met Ralph at 6 to have breakfast.

had coffee.. talked for 6hours or so about shit. hahas, it was epic man.

came home at noon.

slept till like what? 1.45pm?

woke up & freshened up a little.

went to Ralph's crib. all those wonderful gadgets can be seen.

had a round of driving simulator style. sorta.

pretty cool i'd say. yeah dude, the dirty fuckers.

went off to K.L.P. to meet aunt & settle some stuffs.

Went to Suntec.. walk around & chill..

THEN !

HOME SWEET HOME.

so here i am, since just now, on my bed..

gonna sleep after this post..

i'm going to shop for shoes tomorrow.

maybe i'll get a vans or fallen sneakers or something?

=D hehehehehhehehehehhehe.

WHAT A BOWL ! =D

9/6/10

WOKE UP LATE !

12.45

didn't manage to go for D&T in the morning. neither swimming in the afternoon.

=P

went out for DANIAL's BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION.

supposed to meet the others at 6. but i was late ! as usual ! =x

so yeah i met up with the man himself

then we went to meet astley,andre,alex,amanda,huixuan,windfred & spencer at marina sq.

did all the cake stuffs.

alex left early cause he had tuition. & then we went for dinner at PIZZA HUT.

then went to play bowling!

we all had fun. not too bad for some first timers today.

finish our game & we headed home.

i just finished up my measurements for my product.

so yeaps, will be waking up early tomorrow for school. =D

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i hope you're good over there.

been 4days you're away.

i miss you. & nope, i haven't been doing nonsense.

PLANS FOR TODAY, later ;

1) school.

2)send netbook to grandma's place

3) meet my aunt at kallang leisure park.

4) have dinner & head home.

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8/6/10

& I"M FEELING REALLY SORE.....

besides that, i'm exhausted. feel like i'm getting sick. haven't had enough rest & sleep..

school starts at 7.30 tmr. D&T..

so yeah, i swam yesterday.. went to steam bath.. jacuzzi..

went for school today. tomorrow i'm gonna start producing my finalised design for coursework..

hope it's not a hassle... =.-

& i have practically nothing else to write about for now..

plans for tmr ;

schoool. go for a swim with my peeps.

& then maybe out to celebrate danial's birthday with the others. [:

can't sleep... like usual...

My ship went down

in a sea of sound

when i woke up, i had everything.

A handful of moments

i wish i could change

And a tongue like a nightmare

that cuts like a blade..

In a city of fools,

i was careful & cool

But they tore me up like a hurricane.

A handful of moments

i wish i could change

But i was carried away..

* Therapy-All Time Low. *

here i am..

each night.. it's semi-sweet..

can't comprehend why..

on myself ; understanding myself better. things better.

goodmorning. 7th comes so soon..

don't feel like typing anything much for this post.

so i'll just end this off now.

5plus in the morning.

okay, i'm still awake.. at andre's crib.. it's pretty cool..
4 guitars plus a decently great amp. what more do we need other than just that?
nahs, actually that's for leisure. studied maths & taught dnt to my peeps.
enjoyable night. but i can't sleep? =(
not because of not used to the surroundings..
BUT ;
it's just that, everytime i lie down trying to get some sleep.. the thought of you, your breath,your touch & warmth keeps playing in my head & sometimes it gives me an atmosphere that you're right here. & it sinks me real down at times.
cause i've missed you. so very much.
i hope i'll get to see you soon. real soon.
& just takecare of yourself while you're out there.
i still wouldn't want anything bad to happen to you.
you'll know what i mean if you read this.
=(

P.s
looks like i won't be getting any sleep at all.
in a few hours time, i'll be going down to get breakfast.
early goodmorning readers. thanks. alot.


* no worries readers. i'm still as straight as before.
hahahas. seriously, no sarcasm or stuffs on you guys. i'll keep things cool around here.
takecare? hahas. yeah (Y)