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it's been really awhile since i updated this dying blog of mine.
so here's the updates ;


gotten back my results...
two passes... -.- wtf?! it's alrightt, i have like 3months or so to revise..
got it all planned & figured out. [:


June's coming my way so yeahh.
the outline of my june;
gonna have an all guys chalet with my peeps. which guruanteed that it will definitely be fun,hectic & the likes of it.
having extra lessons in june too. gotta finish up my model & project for d&t. :D
gonna bunk at my friends house with the rest to study & wind down. [:

me ; i'm feeling better on the whole.. i've woken up.. gonna get better grades & pave my way out into my next future. & everything else can be settled & re-looked at later. there's alot of time after that. now's not the time to be feeling down. gonna study & enjoy myself at the same time with my buds & JUNE is the perfect time for that. [:


those who've never failed to make me smile.
thanks alot. we're gonna have FUN, MUCH MORE FUN. :D

thoughts.. & just thoughts..

P.O.A = SCREWED
tried to study, a little. nothing flowed into my head.
but seriously? do i look like i'm lost in my own atmosphere? two people told me so..
& this is what happens when nothing is flowing into my head.
SCREWED.

talk to you last night about stuffs.
i mean, it's alrightt.
i understand that you can't be there.
you know. i know.
i understand... everything..
no grudges on my side..<3



was surprised to get a call today.
it's nice to know that you're gonna have a week of a little fun during June.
i just hope everything goes well in JUNE for you. [:
maybe it's good to have a little short break from everything from school & stuffs.
well.. take this opportunity to enjoy yourself cause it's gonna be hell after JUNE. :D


just don't take things too hard on yourself.
you gotta loosen up at times. it'll do you well.
i'm still here , if things gets too hard for you to shoulder.
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11th...

today; i had chemistry paper. to be honest, i enjoyed doing chem papers more than the others.
so took the 75mins paper. ended at 9.15. [: went home & my peeps asked me out to watch Ip Man 2.
the show's pretty good.. those who never watched the first sequel will get lost in the show.. finished watching around 1.30plus.. so gyeaa, had a quickbite & went home.
ratings ; surely worth to watch. (:


it's raining now.. tomorrow's CHEM practical exams.. 9.45 starts & only ends when the third shift arrives..
maybe i'll study geog a little today.. & the remaining tomorrow.. hope luck's on my side..

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myself; still trying to get along with everything.. i ain't giving up yet on my life & myself because i've got too much to lose.. i'm somewhere between alright & not.. it's not that bad.. i guess.. bittersweet i'd put it.[: it's just that those thoughts & memories keep playing in my head.. sometimes everywhere i go & talk about, reminds me of her, so much.. it's still a long way to the top.. but i'll definitely make the best out of it..


~takecare readers~

nobody knows it but me..

feeling the crunch.

tired from 2.4 run the whole school day.
veh shag after all that shitass running.
almost blacked out. just almost. chest felt tight. breathing had problems.
idk why.

i can't resist of not picking up the phone to text you.
the truth is; i've been screaming out inside..

so i picked up the phone, pressed text msg.. there it goes; all the pressing & undo-ing.. eventually, i didn't sent any smses.. =| i guess.. i didn't wanna make you affected with my tiredness & make you feel annoyed/irritated & stuffs.. cause it matters alot..

so there i was ; the whole time in every lesson, staring at my phone.. staring into thin air.. mind's drifting away..
to be honest, i didn't learn anything today.. things got even worse when lesson's is extended till 3pm.. excused myself at 2.45 cause i couldn't take it anymore.. went home & i bunked in bed.. woke up only at 7plus.. tomorrow's humanities & maths paper 1.. hopefully the exhaustion won't affect too much of me.. head's still throbbing.. mind's still drifting.. chest's still feels pretty tight.. hopefully i'll be fine.. :|


i miss you.. alot..

quicky.

hey there.
alot has happened lately.. GOod Stuffs. Bad stuffs..
all that i'm set for is my ticket to my next future. & then i'll come back.

Problems will be set aside. be it with friends. home.
every else is cleared & settled. & i'll come back, definitely.

that's all for the updates.
not too much. & i'm gonna be away, maybe a veh long time.
2 weeks? 3 weeeks? maybe earlier too. depends on how it goes.

takecare people.