Just Another Dream Of Mine?

i'm back once more..

firstly ; i don't know how i've been though.. not sure whether i'm great or am i just plain not..

& one thing i've realised is that.. humans, being typical human beings, they tend to think more with their minds but rarely listens to their hearts even if they said they did..

' the question that people should ask themselves is ; have they been true to themselves & listen to their heart rather than their minds? ' because once they do, their mind will always win & that contradicts being true to themselves.

just try to think about it for sec.

myself ; i have no idea how i'm feeling lately.. my dreams starts to unfold like how it was picture a few months back.. i hope i'll still be a nice person as days goes by because i just don't need anyone to test my wire right now.. i get that alot.. just trying to be as patience as i can be.. just today i choked a motherfucker, who tried to be funny, lightly. lucky him. & he got choked at another instance by someone else. how lucky can he get in 15 mins?

well... it's been awhile since i saw you..

i don't think meeting is gonna happen anytime so soon.. yes youu.

it's good that you're happy & i'm contented to know that you are.. (:

if i have to be really honest here...

if i could, i'll just take you back away now.. because it's kills, i guess thats my way to describe it..

but i won't because from the way i see it, you're contented there.. maybe this is what've been crossing my mind these few days too..

you're the greatest gift to me & even if there's like others for me to trade for.. i wouldn't do so because you're priceless & i love this gift of mine, alot.

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UPDATES :

First of all !
Finally, world cup is over..
i can get back my tv to watch movies once more. :D

well... i'm fine with my life.. at the least, i'm contented with it somehow.
some friends got into some crap & transfferring is the only way out.. fucken 3 damn years of solid friendship... well, it saddens me.. but i'm sure it's the best way out.. you'll do fine dude.. we are all here for you.. lets catch up over coffee some time soon. life, is at the end, surprising. (:

the next thing,
i wanna do well.. i need to motivate myself further..
i don't know how... but i just have to do it somehow..

i've learnt alot throughout this years journey so far,
like patience is what we all must have to control & turn things to our favour.
i think love is a beautiful thing eventhough we don't get to hold it in our hands. it's not about owning that someone anyway.. it's about how you've played your part & try your bestest to make a difference in someone's life. & if you failed, it's alright, it makes you see your mistakes & you still learn in a way or two.

health ;
i've been feeling sick in my chest.. no one knows, well, now those who reads this knows la.
i dont know what happened.. maybe it's an old thing coming back again.. but i'm fine, sometimes the pain can be really stinging.. & when that happens, it sucks cause i feel as if i'm suffocating..

all that i really ever wish for right now is ;

1. for YOU to make it to next year & be happy there, which you are.

2. hope my friends are gonna be alright, especially this friend of mine as stated in the yellow portion above. thanks man for everything. 'see you soon' , like you said, a better choice of phrase.

3. to have a calm soul & mind right now.. that's all i need right now.

"being apart ain't easy in this love affair..

hopefully, i get the joy of rediscovering you.

& i'll be forever yours... faithfully.. "

<3

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well.. i've not been having time to reply anyone's smses these few days..

it's either i fell asleep all the way from 4pm till the next day or i've been feeling really ssucky with my sickness & also with my work.. i've got little choice right here.

i'm sorry guys. & i'm esp sorry to you too, love.

i still care, a whole lot about you cause you're still my number one right here. =/

all i know is that, i'm having a flu right now, from the symptoms. & i'm on self-medication.

your birthday's coming up soon ! (:

i hope things are alright over on the other side.. for you...

you should know what i mean.. home & stuffs..

all i've got to tell you is that,

i'm here & i'll always be here like i've always said to you.

i'll try my bestest to get back to you asap, esp on every friday, saturday & maybe sunday too..

i didn't mean anything bad on that..

i just want you to understand that i don't have no one else.

& yes, i love you and miss you so very much.

i just don't ever want to be like those in your past..

i don't wanna be anything you forget.. =/