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Nope.. i ain't a liar, love. i understand how screw things were. :l
about tagged ; there's still some log in problems to it. webpage errors & stuffs.
i'll try to get it fixed.. & done. asap.

i guess you had a pretty rough day & stuffs on next tuesday's paper.
it's alrightt, whatever it's gonna be like, i'm here.
calm down perhaps? study hard in the process too.
light up lovee,,
i don't wanna have any frictions/tension with you no more lovee.
<3
i'll see you soon.

as for me;
school; i'm gonna do something about my grades. i can't let external affairs affect me, like home & the pressure it had on me. had a private talk with teacher about my grades & potential. to think of it, it's true.
i've been side tracking & it affected my grades. i should start back in the right place. right mode. & things will be alright. i'm supposed to make everything & anything possible. so yeahs, most probably i'm gonna have a change of seat, a new desk partner & a whole lot of adjusting to the new environment/ atmosphere whatever you call it. i have alot on the line. there's no turning or looking back to tell myself about the what if's..

the nightt after the late nightt after the draggy afternoon.

lets begin for the third post for today;

sighh... i've finally felt this strangest silence.. nothing nice. it's nothing spectacular. it's nothing to feel good about.
it's the closest feeling i've ever had to losing youu.. it feels worse without youu for a day.. what more if it's for any longer baby. :l


my evenings were crashed by the rain. & i had nothing else to do but music for the whole day.
i cleaned up a little of the big mess in the room. the whole evening was draggy. i was temperamental.
i'm annoyed & irritated at home. unreasonable parents, esp mom.
picking on me everytime she's unhappy because there's no one else that she likes to vent her anger on. great. you're so blessed dhan. idk,, but if mom wants a better life, then go ahead. go get a divorce. set yourself free. set yourself from this 'cage' you say you are bounded in.. even though i don't want you to.. & it's not because of all of us that you get SHOUTED at. it's your own fault.why can't you look & see your own mistakes mom..
why are you so keen & impulsive of pushing the blame to others. what do you get?.. it just sucks..
:l i cannot comprehend no more. cause upteen times i've tried to make it all alright, it's okay for a moment. but soon enough all returns back to where it started. my efforts is all in vain. i'm just gonna let mom cool down, i've said my piece of mind to mom too . & there's gonna be nothing more. nothing less. she has a mind of her own. to think. to feel. to decide. let her do it by herself. i don't wanna lose the rest of my patience anymore. it's enoughh. it's not worth it. i believe it's just a bad time overclouding the good times that's gonna come..
this thing isn't really dragging me down. it just makes me uncertain of my parents anymore. that's all.
i'm still very alrightt & stuffs. because i have a life to live for.


r'ship ; i wish everything's alright.. i wish you ain't thinking so much about the negative..
i hope you'd see that i've sorted my mind out.. things happening at home is beyond my control..
i hope you'd understand what i mean. this time for real.
mom's just stressed out with the others & everything's on me.
i've expressed to mom how i felt about stuffs this evening. now it's up to mom to think before she acts.
i wasn't rude. really nicely, everything.
i'm really happy being & having you in my life.
i have this life to live for, babyy.
& that's final. i had no regrets if you'd like to know.
cause you seem to have alot more on your mind.
i'm here, for you to make me understand, your feelings & emotions on the whole lovee.
<3



notice*
my prepaid's down.. if there's anything you guys want help with or wanna ask me out to chill out.. leave me a message & i'll try to get back to you guys with a call or something. or just facebook me. thanks. probably just leave me a message.

the afternoon after the late nightt.

idk why the heck am i stuck at home on a saturday afternoon.
when prepaid's low, i can't do anything & it feels like i'm screwing up everything.
fuckprepaid.fuckprepaid.fuckprepaid.fuckprepaid.fuckprepaid.

so yeahh,
i woke up late. washed up. had my late breakfast & lunch. showered.
& now i'm updating my blog on this.. with equally nothing much to say..
just whining away.. i know this is like what the f**k. -.-

so tell me, what should i do today?
sit around at home, go out with my peeps, just lay in bed all day,
keep on thinking how screwed can things get whenever prepaid's low or just stare into thin air?
tell me cause i seriously don't know. ok, i guess boredom is taking over me.

i'm feeling bluuuueeeeeeeee.. idk what that really means,literally, but yeahhs i'll update you guys in the nightt.
ciaaosss ! (Y)

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flickr.com/photos/kasixcakes/2131665731/


a little something that caught my attention.
pretty huge but nice thoughh.


time check : it's about 0203hrs. still couldn't sleep. feeling pain in my ribs/lung area.
bearing with the pain for the rest of the nightt till it goes away. =l

P.s
we've got each other and that's alot love.

that's all for the early morning post.
ciaos.. people..

10th. & the every other day.

Lets Begin Updating !

School : Choked my assignments up.. still a long way to finish it all up. ok, not really that longg but it's toughh i guess. Teacher's been really understanding & nice.. lesson's are getting more intensive, from what it seems.. i get lethargic, i get distracted, i lost my dedication to the lesson's sometimes.. i'm just tiredd & landed with so much exhaustion.. & i'm not the few ones on the blacklist for minor school rule problems anymore.. which is goood, i guess.

Relationship : guess what?! it's been 7 months down the roadd.^^ well.. it's not really so much of the months. it's just the little2 things & gestures we do in those times, it's worth so much more than the number of months itself.[: & all i can say that times been pretty fastt ! so for this 7th month, we've decided to go for a picnic to CELEBRATE, which we did like 5 days ago! [: it's was really nice & enjoyable, to have the company of another someone who's dear to you. & the minor epics from the surroundings that we had a chance to laugh at made it more fun. p.s. the monkeyy beee ! you know. i know. they don't know. =9 & i guess we should do this kinda stuffs more often you knoww, pack stuffs from home & have fun outdoors. totally agree with you on having a lower budget on spendings but still do those stuffs that we both enjoy. [: heyy.. ilysvmhun<3>

Friends : hehehe. we all know what we enjoy so veh much during lessons heh ! (: they've been really greatt esp, Danial, Jerome, Zheng Hui, Astley,Andre, Zul.. we're a bunch of nonsensical clowns.. well.. literally.. hahas. so yeahh, through good & bad times, we'll still entertain almost everyone yeah. hahahas (: it's been greatt laa.

HOME : BUMMER . ANNOYING. IRRITATING. lets not talk about it. -.-

CIAOS ! (Y)

vrooooooooom !

Hello there .
been like ages since i last posted something in my blog. been busy with school stuffs & music.
Let's talk about the things that you guys should know.
Lets Make It Fast ;

SO HERE IT GOES-->



R'ship ; having you near me. holding you near me ,
i want you to stay and never go away
cause it just feels so right. :D
& ilysvm. it's been really greatt, the time we've spent love.=D

School ; it's been greatt so far this week, just the weather takes it's toll on almost everybody.
but with the usual people, life's hectic like every other day.
focusing & trying to study well.

Myself : been greatt. coughing up alot though. ):
hope everything's alrightt with my health. i've been having late nights, gotta try to sleep early. (:
taking my medication. changing my attitude towards schoolwork cause i aint wanna end up being a USELESS fella.damn rightt, i'm not gonna turn myself into one. i have alot to live for, alot on the line.. etc. & i'm gonna make it. & i aint gonna fail [:
& maybe i'd have to get a job for a month or two for my own expenses, then call it QUITS & say hello to EXAMS.
blablablabla~


so there it goes[:
& ihaveagoodgoodgirlthat'sakeeper, like seriously.
& she's the better half of me.(: