Sometimes i just hope that i could wash away all the pain of today and yesterday.

i ruin everything that's close to me.

well, i feel so empty..
i've been telling myself that i'll be fine, but that's a lie..
been having recent fights/disagreements/arguements with my folks over something ( i still don't get it) .
missing everything that i've lost along the way.
i was growing up, make my mistakes & paid my dues.. we all do..

& baby, i do miss the way your eyes gleamed vibrantly when i used to talk to you so closely in the past, for now it seemed like they're gone. :\ ( have i lost you..)

sometimes it's quite depressing to think of everything.. but when i wake up the next morning, i'll be fine & happy again.. cycle goes on..
i think i need coffee and ciggarettes. more ciggarettes. more coffee..
( don't let me start all over again please... :[ )

my journey so far has been fun, esp from september last year..
now a year passed by, i realised it was pretty fast. it's over (us) when our minds & egos took over us.
we screwed up like heck. say mean stuffs. but regardless, it didn't manage to stop me to love you up till now.
it was never the same without you. 10th's on sunday. church on sunday for you.
apparently, i guess i'm gonna spent this 1year 1month annimonthsary alone again.

i don't think i've been well with my health though, never been to the doctor since my last critical visit. & my life is getting to that point where i don't think i might be myself anymore (not related to my health). i love you all, esp those people who knew me & what i wanted to do in my life really well, like my ; haji lane lepak partner & jamming people. & last but not least, the person who knew me for the most part, both inside & out, which is you hunneh.

thanks for the memories people.
if there's still time, we'll party hard when the moment we've waited for, ends.